It feels good to be back, writing again.
There are so many to catch up from what I have experienced in last 3 months, which I spent in India.
I flew from Bangalore to Tokyo on last Thursday, transited in Singapore, it was just nice opportunity for me to let go some emotions that I almost could not handle without telling someone (I did a record on my own while waiting for my flight in Bangalore airport, for a 10 minutes long self-conversation, I choked for many times holding my emotions).
It was probably the longest 3 months and at the same time shortest 3 months in my life; too much happened within this period but at the same time I knew I want more of ‘it’. Eventually I decided to move on, thinking I have already been taking so much from India, I need to make sure of what I have taken, and the best way is to use what I learnt on myself, practice within myself. So I brought all I got from India with me to Japan, and it is the time to know if I have really learned anything in my past 3 months.
I went to India with only one aim, which was to bring my yoga asana practice to higher level, which I did (in my personal view), but I also gained so much more. I am stronger not just in my asana, but also in mind; I am more flexible not just in my body, but also in mind. Things did not turn out to be what I was hoping them to be before I went to India, but they turned out to be the best they could be for me.
I wanted to build a good relationship with my asana teacher, but it turned out that he was not the person who wants to build closer relationship with students (at least for our batch of teacher training course). When I thought I had no one to be inspired from, I realized I had built friendship with so many good practitioners in the course, they were all inspiring practitioners, and I was having too much ego to notice them.
I thought teacher would be everything I need when it comes to my practice, but I was wrong, no one could know better than ‘me’ when it comes to ‘my’ practice. I need to know myself best, before anyone will know about me.
This is another lesson I learnt though I received so much advice from teachers, I need to focus on my own practice so that I could get what the advice is, and whether the advice is valid for my body.
I realized my breathing was wrong, in my second last week of my 3 months practice in India. I was trying to blame it on the previous teachers who did not notice it and remind me, but I was the one to be blame, I was not mindful enough, enough on the most basic thing when it comes to practicing yoga.
Instead of just asana teachers, I met teacher who taught us philosophy, he opened my eyes and made me realized how much I do not know about Yoga,and how much I am interested to know about it.
I am not good at socializing, meeting new friends, but I learned that sincerity always works, a sincere smile, a sincere greeting is good enough, it is ok to keep silence when there it is unnecessary to speak.
A spontaneous decision made when I met a friend from Japan, we decided to visit Mysore together, just to see how this city of Ashtanga yoga origin looks like. We bought flight ticket and we just went for it, without booking the hotel and knowing which teacher we will practice with during our stay.
But things went perfectly well, we did not only get a comfortable and big house to share with, we also found the best ashtanga teacher, who taught with so much heart to each student he had, I want to be a teacher like him.
I did not get any vaccines nor prepared pills for malaria/stomach flu, I became worried after I arrived to the yoga shala and heard from the friends I met they all got vaccines and pills.
But I was lucky that I did not get any serious illness or Dehli Belly during my stay. I got slight fever on my fourth day in India, but recovered within 2 days.
I learnt how to be more chilled when it comes to situations out of my control, accept results with smiles, be it a good ones or bad ones, a good day is what all matters.
I also started to express myself better, feeling easier to show and share things about me to others, I still could not believe that I can now sing with my broken ukulele skill in front of my friends, and friends I just met.
When I thought of all the above,what else do I ask for more?