I planned for this 1 month ago, when I noticed there was a long weekend (14-16th April) from Good Friday holiday.
I bought myself a tent 2 weeks ago, though it was rather a spontaneous decision (took me a while, considering it will be another possession),
but I knew I will use it for many times in future, and it is the only thing I probably will need to buy for this trip.
I first heard of this idea of holding a personal retreat, I was so excited about it.
Because I longed to go for a retreat, but due to many constraints, one big concern I have was whether I am suitable for a group retreat with probably many pre-arranged activities.
After some thinking, I realized what I needed was rather a ‘self’ time, or a ‘quiet self’ time.
Off from all the distractions, packed activities, entertainments.
So I knew I could hold one session for myself.
Yes, I could have done it at home. But I just want to put myself closer to the nature, to the grass, the sea, the sky.
(It may be the beautiful way to say it, mostly I was just afraid that home is too comfortable that I would spend most time resting, spend time thinking should I turn my laptop/or tv)
I only planned for a short trip, 1 day (24hrs)
I got only 1 rule for this trip:
– Use phone and internet to the minimum I could (I turned off the phone and internet all time except when I really need it to get directions)
I brought below items along for this trip:
– Yoga mat
– A notebook
– A pack of nuts
– A big bottle of water
– A small bottle of matcha
– A pair of clothes to change
– A pillow
– and some money
I did what I planned to do, I meditated as long as I wanted, I read and wrote as much as I wanted, I practiced yoga as long as I wanted
I also spent time just sitting at the beach, doing nothing but just listening to the sea, looking at the sky.
I felt that my mind was never in this relaxing state for very long time.
For me, it has already served what this retreat was about, I thought I would be in difficulties or would feel uneased, for not having things to do.
But instead, only when I stop doing and being busy, I got the chance to be more aware of what I see, and knowing what I am doing.
I looked forward to my next retreat and I should make it a longer one.