I am not sure if it is a Chinese thing, but taking has been something hard for me and that I am learning to do.
I have been attending the online course offered by Tushita Meditation Centre, the teaching by kind Venerable Drolma has been tremendous help for me in my personal inner growth.
She teaches about Buddhism and that we are never alone, and in fact we could never survive alone, that we have been living and connecting with so many people indirectly.
Look at the essential things we use and we need in daily, they are made by other people, when we break down one single thing, it consists of so many elements and components which are made by so many others.
We have been taking and accepting without knowing, we have been accepting help without knowing.
At the same time, we actually give others without knowing who are the receivers too. Despite just things, how about our speech? Our teaching? There are many ways we are interconnecting with others, and influencing others.
Despite many of my students were requesting me to teach Yoga online from the first time our country announced the news about the lockdown. Knowing many other teachers had started doing so, so as many international yoga teachers were doing so, I was reluctant to react.
I chose not to take any action thinking we did not have to quickly make things to fill up our time. It is like we refuse to take time to look into the actual situation and accept it. I reckoned that making ourselves busy as usual was not necessary. So instead of yoga asana classes, I took chance to hold meditation session and pranayama classes.
The lockdown was extended again and again, people started to get sick staying home (including my dad), and I felt that it was time to start online yoga classes, and from a video shared by a well known yoga teacher, I decided to make it a Free/Donation based online class.
I had no expectation about the donation and how many students would actually attend my class. But many showed interest, many joined my class, and many donated. It warmed my heart.
It also opened up my heart about receiving, taking from others. Especially during one of the teaching sessions by Venerable Drolma, about Self-compassion, we do not want to define ourselves from an action or emotion, when we are angry at certain moment, it does not mean we are an angry person; so as this time that I receive donation from others, it does not define me as a weaker person, I have been trying my best to give others and to offer quality classes.
Thanks to the donation that I received from my students, now I managed to make donation to Tushita Meditation Centre for attending their online courses.
Really appreciate the help from others to others and to me during the difficult time, I understand that there are many others who are not as lucky as myself and I hope the best goes to them.
Picture taken when I was in Dharamsala, India. After this shot, I attended a life changing meditation course in Tushita Meditation Centre (the article is here)